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What becomes of the broken-hearted?

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What happens when you find yourself on the fringes of society, watching the masses pass you by, roaming the streets filled with people having lunch at cafes, laughing, eating with all their abundance, leaving behind half-eaten wedges of cake that make your mouth water?

 

I sit and watch from the street benches in my pretend clothes and no-one would ever know that I am hungry too, that I don’t have the money for a bus fare, let alone a coffee. I sit there in full make-up, white coat from the op shop, clean and shiny – and crying inside.

I am long-term unemployed as far as classifications go. I live on the poverty line, yet I would never admit it out loud. I am a very spiritual person who is learning about financial hardship so I can feel it in my bones and blood and get hit with it right where it hurts – right in the socket of my pride. It’s all so I can write to you, to the world, about what it’s like.

I have chosen this – I get that – and the biggest gift from all of this is how stripping myself back reveals me to me. It all starts here – and never before have I felt more real.

I have been amazed at just how much I can go without. I have not enjoyed it at all, yet it has grown a depth of appreciation that has helped me to reveal my true self because wearing the mask has become almost impossible to do.

It’s opened my heart to other people and I have released a lot of self-judgment and returned to a greater self-love. Stripping everything back gave me back my heart life and, as uncomfortable and frustrating as it has been, I know I am better for it.

My first and truest love is writing and I have kept a journal since I was 7 years old. I have always loved nature and this love has led me to discover meditation, which I have used as a tool for self inquiry, healing and connecting to Spirit. It has been in recent years that I have run guided meditation classes that are channelled, and set the landscape for people to go within to receive the guidance, healing, wellness and the ability to create new visions for their lives.

Through being recently unemployed in a worldly sense, I have been given the time to reflect once again and to gain the understanding of what I want to create in this new part of my life.

So many of us project outwards and search outwards to be fed from others and the world, when the true message and depth of our heart and feelings are calling us within, to listen, to hear ourselves and understand who we are and what we truly need.

‘We are who we are waiting for’ and the miracles borne of that never cease to amaze.

I will be looking forward to commencing new meditation and spiritual development classes in the coming months on the beautiful Mornington Peninsula in Somerville.

 

by Nathalie Cass

My first and truest love is writing and I have kept a journal since I was 7 years old.  I have always loved nature and this love has led me to discover meditation which i have used as a tool for self inquiry, healing and connecting to spirit.  It has been in recent years that i have ran guided meditation classes that are channelled and set the landscape for people to go within to receive the guidance, healing, wellness and the ability to create new visions for their lives. 

Through being recently unemployed in a worldly sense, i have been given the time to reflect once again and to gain the new understanding of what I want to create in this new part of my life. 

So many of us project outwards and search outwards to be fed from others and the world, when the true message and depth of our heart and feelings are calling us within, to listen, to hear ourselves and understand who we are and what we truly need.  

‘We are who we are truly waiting for’ and the miracles born of that never cease to amaze.

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